Sometimes I come to a point where I ask myself...
What am I supposed to do next?
Growing up I have always been told that you should always tell the truth and that no matter what you are doing the right thing. Typically that was when my dad caught me in a lie and said, "if you tell me the truth now, your punishment wont be as bad if you lie to me".
But what if the truth hurts someone?
What if the result from being honest does not result in a desirable end?
Is it okay to be honest if it changes everything?
When you know something, it can eat you alive.
It can make you crazy.
You'll end up a mess.
Doubting.
Confused
Lost.
But there is freedom in truth. The chains are broken, and no matter the result, you know you did the right thing. Because during your moments of tears, hurt, doubt, confusion...the truth is a definite direction.
Id rather head in a determined direction rather than aimlessly continue on...right?
I normally fault to praying when I feel confused. I normally seek for answers when I dont know. There is no stabbing in the dark when it comes to my decisions, because I fear being wrong.
"These are the things that you shall do: Speak the truth to one another; render in your gates judgments that are true and make for peace" Zechariah 8:16
Peace
Id like a little of that.
Peace in the choices that I make...
Peace in the direction that I am confused about...
Peace in the chaos and situations I cannot control...
Peace in letting go...and in holding on to...
Peace in the storm...and peace in the calm...
The only peace that I have consistently found is by taking a step back, a deep breath, and praying.
I have always heard to not pray for patience, because something will be handed to you that you didnt expect. Since I have been handed a few things I already havent expected, praying for peach doesnt seem to bad.
